Now what?

Kind of excited for my sister's wedding, however I still don't have anything to wear. So here I am looking at gowns. Hmm... what to wear? what to wear?

A Mother's Love

Awhile back (when it was still September 25), I suddenly had the urge to watch Nooma[1] again, as if there's something of importance I needed to understand or even to remember. It was all about the Maternal image of God, and it was very interesting especially since it was something that we normally do not really talk about. To add to that, right after watching Nooma I read about the exact same thing in one of the blogs[2] that I follow.

They both talked about how God loves us and how "As a father has compassion for his children, so the Lord has compassion for those who fear him." (Psalm 103:13) Both of them focused on the word compassion and how this word was derived from the word womb or womb-like. Imagine that! God has a womb-like compassion for us, His children.

Although I am not a mother we all know how deep a mother's love is for her kids, how she connects with them, and how she protects them and delights over them. To think of God's love for us in this point of view, makes it even bigger and powerful and all-encompassing. As a mother delights in us, so does God[3] (and in a bigger way)! God watches over us, He looks at our every move with loving eyes, He laughs with us and cries with us, He embraces us knowing that we need it even though we say don't, He protects us... He loves us so much in so many big ways that one cannot posibly describe it! That is just looking at it in the maternal image, if we add all the other images of God's love, all the other metaphors used, then imagine how much bigger His love is for us.

To think that these are just metaphors, imagery, words that are used to further emphasize the point, or to beautify our sentences. These are just words. And God's love cannot be contained by our language! And that was really their point, that very thing that I needed to remember and understand fully, that God loves me! He loves each and every one of us so so sooo much; so much that we can't even describe it fully.

1nooma.com
2 Thinking Out Loud
3 A dear friend of mine also sent a devotional e-mail this day about how God delights over us. God really is all around!

I'll Be Ok

Everything will be ok. As long as my God is with me, everything will be ok.

You alone I run to, no one helps me like You
I'll be ok when I'm safe in your arms and the thoughts of this world fades away...
I'll be ok when it's you by my side and the tears of this life wipe away...
I'll be ok with You...

Another beautiful ending/Another exciting beginning

I only have until Friday; after that I will no longer be a college student.

It feels weird. I feel very happy about it, yet quite sad. It's another one of those journey that is nearing its end so one can start a new one. All of us are now in the point where we constantly reminisce about everything from frosh days to whatever days, and we are all in a very nostalgic mode.

Looking back, I can see how God greatly worked in my life and how He blessed me so so much. With that I sing "Laging tapat/ laging sapat/ ang aking Diyos/ na makapangyarihan...".

I will dearly miss my college days, but even though I am about to close this chapter of my life, I am looking forward to the future knowing that God will always be by my side.

And if my God is with me whom then shall I fear?

August 29, 2009 - A night where I experienced a very bad "shock" in my life. It was my first and hopefully my last. Everything happened so quickly, yet somehow during that time, I thought everything went to a stand still. As if, in that instant, someone made everything go slow. I wish I was brave enough to do something. I can't believe I just stood there. Still, it is all over now and there is nothing I can do about it. Yes, I am still scared. Now, however, I have peace in my heart for I know that my God will never leave my side.

You Never Let Go By Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

I am very thankful that nothing bad further happened. We are God's children and He will always protect us. Lastly, even though it is hard, there is something I must do. Whoever and wherever you guys are, I forgive you.